Between the Seams

April Edition - Surgery + Gardening

Hello friends, and welcome to Between the Seams, where creativity, routine, and self-care intersect. This newsletter is where I share the inspiration, musings, and insights that keep me going. Inside, you’ll find a mix of book recommendations, rituals, vision boards, playlists, and even a little sustainable fashion inspo.

Routines and Rituals:

The planets are all currently direct. That was a wild few weeks~!

I had an iron infusion two weeks ago, that unexpectedly triggered a wave of intense depression and anxiety lasting a full week. I was warned about headaches and flu-like symptoms—but no one mentioned the potential mental toll. I was trapped in mind jail. I wouldn’t wish it on anyone.

The anxiety hit hard: intrusive thoughts, overwhelming fatigue, and the dawning realization that I may have undiagnosed OCD. My routines, once comforting, became a double edged sword. If I couldn’t keep up with them, I’d mentally beat myself up, convinced I was inviting punishment from some higher power for skipping yoga or missing steps in my day.

From what I’ve gathered (thanks Reddit), this might be linked to a sudden increase in oxygen to the brain? I’d love to hear if anyone else has experienced something similar?? it truly felt like hell.

During that week, I didn’t have the capacity to create or sew, so I had a few crewnecks screen printed instead.

The good news: I’m finally out of the fog.

And on the other side, I’m already noticing some physical improvements. The scalp pain I used to deal with is gone, and the restless legs that kept me up at night have stopped. I was vegan for over five years and truthfully, I wasn’t nourishing myself properly—mostly junk food, with little iron. I had no idea how deeply an iron deficiency could affect both body and mind?? Duh.

Now, I’m feeling hopeful. I’m looking forward to more clarity, and more energy.

If you have a uterus and you bleed—please get your iron levels checked if you can.

Lately, I’ve been feeling more settled in my space. Working in the yard and prepping my garden beds has become something meditative—grounding in a way I didn’t realize I needed. I used to think, Why invest so much time in tending to a yard when I rent? When a space feels temporary, it’s hard to justify putting down roots, literally.

But I’m learning the value of keeping my hands busy. There’s something healing in seeing progress unfold in places outside of my business. There’s a different kind of reward in walking barefoot through the dirt, feeling the ache in my hands from pulling weeds. It reminds me of the farm I lived on in California—how my garden became my sanctuary, my safe space. Sometimes I’d just sit beside it, admiring what I had grown from seed. Co-creating with god.

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In just over a week, I’ll be having surgery to remove my right ovary—my first surgery as an adult. The last time I went under was when I had my tonsils removed at age eight. This feels bigger. It was originally scheduled for mid-March, during a whirlwind of moving and heartbreak, but Mercury retrograde stepped in, and now I see all the ways the timing has worked in my favor. Everything is unfolding for my highest good. I know I’ll be okay. It’ll probably feel like I got hit by a truck—but I’ll be okay.

I’ll share more soon about how things got to this point, what they found, and how I’ve been tracking this for over four years. It’s been a long journey, and I’m hopeful to be on the other side of it soon <3

As for why I moved (again)—I actually have three posts sitting in my drafts, full of everything I poured out. Writing them was cathartic, even if no one ever reads them. It still feels too raw to speak about my last relationship—and maybe not entirely fair to my ex-partner either. So for now, I’m keeping that stuff close to my heart. But I also know that the most painful experiences are the ones that hold the most light when finally shared. Who’s to say,

Vision Board :

Primarily garden plotting and scheming!

What I’ve been listening to :

Lately, it’s been a lot more audiobooks than music while I sew. I’ve been diving deep into money management, and I’ve realized I retain the “boring” stuff way better when I actually sit down and read with my eyes instead of listening. As a Pisces, I tend to drift off—daydreaming I’m at the river—so I’m constantly hitting that 30 second rewind button.

Currently listening to Profit First by Mike Michalowicz.

Here is a little playlist I made last year for April <3

What’s on my nightstand :

Currently Reading:

When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chödrön (for the 5th time) ,

Next is: All About Love by Bell Hooks & Letting Go by David R. Hawkins

My go to’s for heartbreak and hard times.

When Things Fall Apart by Pema Chödrön

Outfit Inspo:

I thrifted the perfect 60’s striped tee that I’ve been wearing under my denim Carhartt overalls. I’m debating getting a pair of Frye campus boots in the darker brown from depop $$$ I’m pulling out my spring outfits and excited to wear dresses again : )

What I’m working on :

I quit smoking again, which means I started smoking again lol :) three days no ciggz. It’s one of the harder times I’ve quit — I know having surgery and smoking would be so stupid so, here I am.

• I record a podcast that I launched on the first of last month. Part two will be coming later this month.

• As for the House Block Pattern I created, I plan to teach a small, three-day class where I’ll show you how to construct a wall hanging using these blocks and pattern. The class will be hosted on Zoom, where you can ask questions live, and you’ll have access to the recording forever. Afterward, I’m considering selling the recorded classes—stay tuned for more info! Once you take this class, you’ll have the skills to make a full quilt if you’d like! <3

• I will be offering 1:1 sessions again, if you are interested shoot me an email

• I’m also in the process of re-recording past classes I’ve taught, starting with the Travel Bag class, followed by the Mending class and an Intro to Sewing. STAY TUNED!

Surgery is scary, but I know I’ll be okay. I’ve applied for paid leave through Oregon state and hopefully that will alleviate taking time off to heal. I will be writing about my journey with my ovarian mass and how everything went after the fact. That will be a personal essay behind a paywall!

Alright, that’s all for now. Take care! GOD IS CHANGE — okay bye. If you enjoyed this little newsletter, please consider becoming a paid member! <3